Tuesday, June 8, 2010
When You Feel Insufficient
What do you do when everything you offer seems insufficient; when you have made your point and you are STILL mis-understood; when you have decided to make improvements in your life and nothing seems shifts for the better; when none of your burdens are light and you just need some help? What do you do?? Try this and see if it helps:
Be still, get quiet. Relax your shoulders and breathe. Slowly. Cry if you need to. Know that there are solutions to every problem.
And it may be worth asking yourself: Does the blockage start with me? Am I in my own way? Do I need to be more patient, less controlling? Have I overstayed my welcome? Am I as forthright as I think I am? Is my communication clear? Where have I been too quiet? Am I acting or re-acting out of pain or hurt? Would my life be easier if I just ask for support? Shall I just move on?
When I express myself, am I honest and at peace?
When I get stuck and coiled, when I start having these overwhelming urges to cry (and nothing comes out), when I start losing things, and when the clutter piles up on my desk, then I know that it's time for me to be still, get quiet; relax my shoulders and breathe. I close my eyes, humble my head, and I visualize a bright light.
I pray for grace for all my known and unknown flaws. I conjure up a list of all the things I don't want to do, but must. I bring to the forefront all the people and feelings that I don't want to engage, but should. I wrap all them up with courage and promise to not run away. I visualize healthy closure, knowing healthy sometimes tastes bitter. I focus still on the shoulders, where many of us carry our heavy burdens. Deep breathes really do help.
And then I say: "If I am still here, then its for a good reason. I will trust the good in that reason, even if I don't understand it at this moment. Right now, there are things that I can not see and things that I don't yet know that are working in my ultimate favor. When I need to be open and uncoiled, I will be that. When I need to shut down and shut out, I will honor that too. In all, I will respect the power in my life, seek balance, and make progress...every day that I am here."
And then I expect the blessings to flow. They always do.
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